Vapid

In the city with its bustling movement of cars, people and sounds; I stroll aimlessly amongst the sidewalk.  Peering thru windows at the marvels behind the shallow glass betweenst us with no intent on purchasing such things, or even entering the building; only to admire, observe, move along.  As per usual, I wear my headphones to listen something more alluring and beautiful as opposed to the nerve grinding sounds of this city; of which, I am unaware of it's name or where it is.  I am just here, as so many times before.

With speculations; thoughts; wonder running rampant inside me, I feel her arm wrap tightly around my neck whilst at the same time being jolted backwards closely to this faceless woman.  How I was aware of her gender; I am still unaware.  As I struggle with any free movement I can grasp at to see the faceless; I notice her other hand reaching around with clutched knife poised to penetrate my abdomen.  Slow motion; time is irrelevant as if wanting to burn this visual into my eyes, my mind, forever.  As if to say; remember this for your negligence.

The blade gleams, almost magically, as it pierces my soft, warm underbelly.  A searing rip with a sickening guttural sound tears away at my insides; The muscles being torn, shred to which moved past into my organs as they popped and snapped as if releasing long repressed pressures.  However, the immense pain that should have been felt, was not; I felt only snaps, tears and pops.  Never had I been much for the sensations of physical pain anyway.

Time is steadied back to it's familiar place now but as I fall to the ground below me; the entire universe that I thought I knew had shifted.  It seemed that where I had been was vanishing before my eyes and the sidewalk I had firmly stood on had given way. It had opened it's jaws while swallowing me in all entirety; I was gone.

Where was I?  As an observer, though clearly still under developed all things considered, I quickly realized that I was everywhere and nowhere at the same time.  A pure defying of logic or physics that I, we, as people have known.  Pure white; blinding not to just to eyes but all things inside you as well; No color, no walls or boundaries, just limitless space with no restrictions.  Is this how it works?  Should this be how people die?  In an limitless but empty void?  Surely, this is some cruel joke!  

Shattered back to my fatal injury, I glance down to see the only color in all of this realm; The color of my blood, the color of my life leaving, no, being stolen from my body.  It was not in drops nor trickles but streams; rivers and I could feel the consequences of this within myself.  As I start to panic with my heart racing faster at each second that passes; I grasp desperately along the 'floor' where I am bound.  No one here; Not a single soul to say goodbye to me; No one to smile at one last time.  My throat feels dry, scratchy and tight as I choke out my screams for someone, anyone to hear me; see me, don't let me die here!  Not like this!

As I lay there, pleading, screaming, crying; I never stop grasping for anything solid in this timeless space; even as I begin slipping in my own thick, sticky blood that I was drenched and soaking in.  What horror this is I scream to myself, only to realize that my desperate cries make no sound; They are swallowed up before even escaping past my lips.  My last realization before I remembered nothing of my life, myself and ceased to exist was this;

There's no one here to hear my last words..Not even myself; The expanse of this place has enveloped them, even from my own throat.  I will die here, without so much as a blip; even god himself is not here with me in my last moments.

"Travesty.." was uttered in all silences.

I jolt up out of bed.